Did I Stay or Did I leave?

I left his ass and I took the kids and moved in with my parents the day after christmas. We've been legal seperated since 01/01/2008. I must say that it took everything in me to pack my things and leave. It was the best thing that I could have down for my sanity. This man was play all kinds of head games with me. He has gone as far as to blame me for his affairs. He brought of my lack of trust and effection towards him during the course of our relationsip play factor in the break down the marriage. No, I married a walking penis, a slut, and a hoe. He was that before I married him and he is going to be that way for the rest of his life. I could have been Halley Berry or Beyonce he would still be looking for the next hole to bore in. I couldn't trust him or give myself fully to him knowing that he was sleeping around.

I was a fool to think that my love would change him. It did't and now I'm just another statistic. One precentage point has been added to the divorced black single mother with two kids bracket. Theres nothing wrong with being a single mother, but I've always invisioned being married for 35 plus years like my parents. My parents marriage was no cake walk and they still have issues in there marriage today. The diffrence is they made a commitment to be togehter and work things out no matter what. I was raised with the same value, but my husband wasn't. The first sign of a problem he runs to another woman and when that doesn't work out he comes back to me. This is the 3rd time I've been in this cycle and it will be the last time. The grass is never greener on the other side of the fence.